You hurt me so much so that I need to put a funny emoticon as well as the heart emoticon beside your name in my phone.
So whenever you decide to call, I’ll remember how much joy and love you have brought in my life.
And that, I hope, will make forgiving to be much easier to do.
I don’t want to lose you again…. but somehow, I did.
At some point of our lives, I think each and every one of us will come across people that genuinely care for us yet we don’t really like them. And then there are people that we actually love them but they don’t really care about us🤷🏻♀️
And with that, always remember that in whatever situation, you are dealing with Allah. Deal with the person how He wants you to. Life is a test. This is one of the tests.
It is hard? Absolutely 100%.
Do I want to hang out with you? Nope. No. Why do I want to.
Taat. Taat. Taat. Jangan ikut perasaan sangat.
I find it beautiful that in one of the recommended surahs to read every night is Surah Mulk.
The first verse started out with ‘tabaarak’ (تبارك) – Blessed be He (Allah). If we were to talk about barakah, which is often explained to us in terms of wealth. That is, a small amount of money, if there is barakah in it, then it will suffice. Obviously, barakah doesn’t just apply to wealth.
The first verse is a reminder that in whatever situation you are in your life, with all the chaos going around, remember that He is in control and He has it all planned out.
And the second verse reminds you of your permanent condition: you will be tested.
And in just these two verses, it is as if a means to coax as well as to reaffirm your heart after all that it has been through.
This life is a test, He is in control, Believe.
Although you are chocked up with your own tears, believe.
تَبَٰرَكَ ٱلَّذِى بِيَدِهِ ٱلْمُلْكُ وَهُوَ عَلَىٰ كُلِّ شَىْءٍ قَدِيرٌ
Blessed is He in Whose Hand is the dominion, and He is Able to do all things.
ٱلَّذِى خَلَقَ ٱلْمَوْتَ وَٱلْحَيَوٰةَ لِيَبْلُوَكُمْ أَيُّكُمْ أَحْسَنُ عَمَلًا ۚ وَهُوَ ٱلْعَزِيزُ ٱلْغَفُورُ
Who has created death and life, that He may test you which of you is best in deed. And He is the All-Mighty, the Oft-Forgiving;
I just started to cry, thinking about the fact that this baby and her mother I am looking at, is perhaps like me and Allah.
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A baby, being a baby, can aimlessly go play with things that are dangerous. Or a coughing kid would want a cold drink.
The mum, being the mum, would obviously take the dangerous thing away from the baby and would not give the sick kid the cold drink.
And the baby and the kid would end up crying, throwing tantrums and stuff, not capable of understanding why the mother did what she did.
And sometimes you would cry your heart out to Allah wanting whatever that you ever wanted, not capable of understanding why He did what He did.
“His withholding from you is, in reality, a form of giving.”
He is taking care of you.
I was at the second last row for taraawiih prayers and I was thinking to myself :
You know what. It was too hard for you to join the jemaah for the past few years.
You’ll be anywhere at the back for now.
But maybe, just maaybe, one day He’ll make it easy for you to be at the front row. Allahumma aamiin.
I think I fell deeply in love with you
For always putting me aside