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Copycat

I saw the people I love and looked up to doing that or didn’t do that so I figure I’ll just imitate them…..not because I felt I was one of them but in hoping I can one day become one of them.

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Etiquette of the Heart: Husnuzzhan towards the Teacher

The class ended early, again. But this time, it was way early. It was 9.02pm when he stopped talking on the slides. We were supposed to end at 9.30pm. (Okay to be fair, he went on some Q&A till before 9.15pm or so before dismissing us)

Logically, I felt that the teacher can at least cover the introduction of the next topic or so, and mind you, we are behind schedule. I felt robbed in a way, I paid didn’t I? But then again, is there any price that you can actually attach to knowledge?

I just want to put it here, a reminder to myself, that what mattered most in the pursuit of seeking knowledge, especially religious knowledge, is not necessarily the knowledge itself. There are other factors to take note such as the etiquettes of seeking knowledge.

In this particular incident, I think the best advice I can find is of Imam Burhan al-Din: “In the quest of learning in early times, the students entrusted their affairs of learning to their teacher, and in this manner did they reach their goals and aims. But nowadays they make their own choices and fail to reach their objectives in religious and legal knowledge.”

Maybe the teacher knew most of our brains were already fried and can’t take in more information just now. Maybe?

Kita nak cari keberkatan dalam mencari ilmu itu, maka husnuzzhan lah pada guru. Semoga kita semua sampai pada Tuhan.

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Pleading

When you are asking Him,

Rather than focusing on who you are,

Focus on who you are asking from.

We always felt not worthy of those ‘big’ things like heaven or a good spouse,

But are we even worthy enough for anything that He ever gave?

That sip of cold water we just drank, the ability to close our eyelids, the steps that we walked or the breath that we just took?

What have we ever done to even deserve all that?

You see, it is not that we are worthy enough for anything, but it is that He, who is God, who is Arrazzaq, Arrahmaan, Arrahiim, who is worthy of giving,

And so much more.

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He Listens, He Answers, He is talking to you.

When you are searching for that one verse to remind you to not look at what He gave others but you can’t seem find it. But then you stood behind the imam, and he reads out the exact verse that you are looking for:

وَلَا تَمُدَّنَّ عَيْنَيْكَ إِلَىٰ مَا مَتَّعْنَا بِهِۦٓ أَزْوَٰجًا مِّنْهُمْ زَهْرَةَ ٱلْحَيَوٰةِ ٱلدُّنْيَا لِنَفْتِنَهُمْ فِيهِ ۚ وَرِزْقُ رَبِّكَ خَيْرٌ وَأَبْقَىٰ

And strain not your eyes in longing for the things We have given for enjoyment to various groups of them (polytheists and disbelievers in the Oneness of Allah), the splendour of the life of this world that We may test them thereby. But the provision (good reward in the Hereafter) of your Lord is better and more lasting.

When you are mad at yourself for being you and your mind starts to have all the debate about if only you are like everyone else. And then the imam reads the verse:

سَلَٰمٌ عَلَيْكُم بِمَا صَبَرْتُمْ ۚ فَنِعْمَ عُقْبَى ٱلدَّارِ

“Salamun ‘Alaikum (peace be upon you) for that you persevered in patience! Excellent indeed is the final home!”

Such ‘coincidence’.

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Qiyam

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

“Ummi (mother), I asked ustaz (teacher) that day about my friends. How come they sin but I don’t see Allah punishing them…”

“What did he reply you?”

“He asked me to ask them whether they pray tahajjud. Why?”

“Uwais, what kind of punishment do you expect? Isn’t it enough of a punishment for a believer that Allah did not honour them with His remembrance? When he did not invite you by waking you up in the middle of the night to be in His presence when everyone is asleep?

Uwais, you complained about not being able to be consistent in reading the Quran, review what you have done. Look at your deeds.”

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You against yourself

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Maybe I was thinking about how I was using instagram these days, hence the link.

I was checking one of my family member’s quran reading and today, this ayat was read to me:

ٱقْرَأْ كِتَٰبَكَ كَفَىٰ بِنَفْسِكَ ٱلْيَوْمَ عَلَيْكَ حَسِيبًا

(It will be said to him): “Read your book. You yourself are sufficient as a reckoner against you this Day.”

Some of us use instagram as an online photo album, or use a blog to express and whatever not.

It is as if it was said to me:

“Open your own account with your own password that you have created yourself and you be the judge.”

Are there pictures of you or other people’s aurat exposed? Are there pictures of you sinning? Are there captions or blog posts expressing your (ignorant) views that were against your religion?

Amazing really. Technology.

It knows what kind of post you would like based on who you follow, what pictures you liked, the videos you watched etc.

We don’t even need to wait till the next life, if we are able to access instagram’s intelligence/data on our account to see how much time we spent there, what we watched, what we liked, I think we would freak out on the minute details they know about us.

Nothing compared to the information He has on our lives.

But really, although He knew us inside out, it is enough that we use our own knowledge of ourselves to go against ourselves.

ٱقْرَأْ كِتَٰبَكَ كَفَىٰ بِنَفْسِكَ ٱلْيَوْمَ عَلَيْكَ حَسِيبًا

(It will be said to him): “Read your book. You yourself are sufficient as a reckoner against you this Day.”

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Subtle Differences

Current thoughts:

Do you see the difference between

1) I think that is permissible because if you think about it, there is nothing wrong with it.

2) Based on the the arguments put forth by the scholars, I am of the opinion that it is permissible.

For example, listening to music. There are differences of opinions, sure. But I think sometimes the people in the first group did not study the whole argument and therefore assumed, based on ‘what I think’ and ‘what I heard’ until all music becomes permissible, which is not true.

Scary ey? Most of us (including me) sometimes don’t know what we don’t know and assumed that we know when we actually don’t know.