بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
We took care of Loki for a few days way back in april 2016.
He is a mix breed.
When he was here, what bothered me was that he was just playing, venturing around and not sleeping. (I took care of a few cats before so if a cat is not sleeping after a long period of time, it is kinda odd)
So when he finally closed his eyes to rest in front of my prayer mat while I was reading the Quran, I lowered down my volume, not wanting to wake him up. (Although macam awat hang tidur sini)
And when I decided to stop reading, he opened his eyes, looked at me as if saying ‘why did you stop?’
He was brought into some stranger’s house, and perhaps it is the word of Allah that had made him to feel calm to be able to rest.
And soon after, he lay down on top of my prayer mat in front of me when I am reading the Quran, listening to this lullaby. (Dh ups sikit, dulu depan sejadah, now atas sejadah. Amboi Loki,😸)
May all of us find peace, tranquility and calmness in the words of Allah💗
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
We all have our ‘not-feeling-it’ days right.
It just happened that I just don’t feel like finishing the last 2 pages of what I was supposed to read that morning. And since I don’t have school that day, I was like I’ll read it later.
Maybe I was so tired that day that I even slept for almost 3 hours during the day. If I take into account that I don’t usually sleep during the day, this was like okay dude what is up with that?! So duh I don’t have time to do what I needed/wanted to do during the day so I pushed reading the Quran to night-time.
And so it happened that I had a major meltdown and tadaaaaaaaa: the second page of the 2 pages is Surah Yusof (عليه السلام) i.e. the surah recommended for you to read when you are sad.
الله أكبر الله أكبر الله أكبر ولله الحمد
May our not-feeling-it moments always bring us back to Him💗
عيد مبارك. كل عام وأنتم بخير
Tired of walking.
‘Let me just sit down.’
Few minutes later.
‘Let me just open up the Quran App and see the ayat that the imam is reading.’
لا حول ولا قوة إلا بالله العلي العظيم
بسم الله الرمن الرحيم
Ustazah Suaidah mentioned something like if you ponder upon the verses of the Quran that you are reading, you will see that it will reflect your current situation.
I would backed that up anyday.
On another note, last monday, I was randomly feeling sad and was thinking what I should do about that feeling.
Was going through my head about the things that I heard from various talks and remembered that it was suggested that we read surah Yusof عليه السلام when we are sad.
But it was really late at night and I haven’t even finish my recitation for that day that I was suppose to read and its not like surah Yusof عليه السلام is a super short surah.
So anyhow I opened the mushaf to continue reading from where I last read. Jeng jeng jeng, next page is Surah Yusof عليه السلام.
Sometimes you are forced to practice what you learnt😅
Aku sedar aku dah tersasar jauh
Bile dia berkata
‘Aku nak semak bacaan kau’
Mate aku terus lekat pade mushaf di tangan
Terus hati aku berdebar
Aku fokus terus dekat bacaan aku
Dalam hati terdetik
‘Selama ni mane hati kau pergi?’
Dah jadi routine
A soul-less routine
Sehingga rase macam tak bermakne lagi
Macam dah seakan-akan bace buku biase
Sebab dia ade sanad
Tu yang buat aku tetibe serious segala
Terdetik ‘Habis tu selama ni mane kau letak Allah’
Terngiang-ngiang kate-kate Sayyidina Ikrimah رضي الله عنه
‘كلام ربي، كلام ربي’
‘Ini adalah kalam tuhanku, ini adalah kalam tuhanku’
Jadi mane hilangnye the soul of reading kalam tuhanku
Mane hilang the ta’zhim
Padahal nak ikutkan aku boleh faham jugak bahase arab
Tapi kenape tak try nk pay attention to the meaning
Then aku memang pakai mushaf yang ade translation
Dan aku boleh je bile bace the verses sambil tengok the meaning at the same time bile tk tahu the meaning
Kadang mate aku tengok bende lain lagi ade
Ini jugak nikmat Allah yang Allah akan tanye aku kan?
ثم لتسئلن يومئذ عن النعيم
Aku boleh faham arab tapi bile bace aku tak internalize pun
What a waste
Bile nak berubah ni.
أَلَمْ يَأْنِ لِلَّذِينَ آمَنُوا أَنْ تَخْشَعَ قُلُوبُهُمْ لِذِكْرِ اللَّهِ
Has the time not come for those who have believed that their hearts should become humbly submissive at the remembrance of Allah