I was at the second last row for taraawiih prayers and I was thinking to myself :
You know what. It was too hard for you to join the jemaah for the past few years.
You’ll be anywhere at the back for now.
But maybe, just maaybe, one day He’ll make it easy for you to be at the front row. Allahumma aamiin.
I sort of believed that these unpleasant news kept coming in to keep me sane.
It was like a ‘Eureka’ moment for me. I thought to myself ‘So this is what make mothers strong ey….’
Love, baby, love.
Apparently, I found strength from the misfortunate events of my loved ones.
Sort of like ‘I need to be strong to be able to be there for them’.
A kind of a blessing too. My energy focussing on them to the extent that I can’t even dwell into my feelings for far too long for the misfortunate events in my life.
Drama sangat semuannya.
“If you are soaked, the drizzle won’t affect you.”
❤ اللهم آجرنا في مصيبتنا واخلفنا خيرا منها
Maybe we have been around each other far too long and perhaps our soul kind of need each other.
Maybe it is not the people or the place. Maybe we are just missing each other’s company.
Maybe we just need to be like we used to be.
Maybe we need to be in the same school, same class and same tuition.
Maybe we need to buy two ice lemon teas and two paddlepops.
Maybe we need each other’s shoulder and lap to sleep on.
Maybe I need you to bring me snacks.
Maybe I need you to talk to me.
Maybe you need me to listen.
Maybe I took a piece of you,
And maybe you took a piece of me.
And that is why we almost always feel….like there is something not right.
Yes of course I am a little bit sad because….I chose to not follow them to buy things in JB because of some circumstances that I am in. But instead of being all sad, it is better to think of the people that had put up with me throughout this phase of mine.
O Allah, make it just a phase that I am going through and take me to next phase as how I was suddenly brought into this phase.
Okay so much for wanting to follow coz ‘nak jalan-jalan’, after all, bersiar-siarnye orang beriman adalah membuat ketaatan dan membaca hadith-hadith Rasulullah صلى الله عليه وسلم kaaaaan.
May Allah make us true believers♥️
When people ask me why I am so quiet.
I am just angry.