بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
I do not know in which class that I went to that I suddenly told myself to try to focus on my intention.
It. Was. Hard.
And it will continuously be hard. I know.
Firstly, the hard part is,well, because it wasn’t something that I usually do. So I forgot a lot, obviously.🙄
Secondly, forget about the sincerity of making the intention. I find myself struggling to find a proper intention. A legit intention.
Like okay I open my instagram and scroll through the pictures, what intention should I make. May I find something beneficial? I make the intention to relax for this few minutes and hopefully I’ll be more energetic after this? Hahahaahah. You are kidding yourself right.
Okay maybe that is okay afterall. (Depends who you are following. If you follow all those half dressed people and all the laghaa channel then erm?) But the problem is when I see myself doing something like that repetitively and well, I know I am kidding myself.
These are the times that I need to be sincere to myself. And if I know at the start that the intention is something that is against the rules set by Allah, then I need to try to abstain from it.
This. Is. Hard.
What is the intention behind me posting this post, a selfie, putting on makeup, going to work, going to class, wearing over the top dresses, talking to that particular guy and the list goes on and on……
Sometimes I find myself laughing at myself. (Niyyat kental ape ni….)
This. Is. Hard.
May Allah ease everything.
اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم