Loki the Cat

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

We took care of Loki for a few days way back in april 2016.

He is a mix breed.

When he was here, what bothered me was that he was just playing, venturing around and not sleeping. (I took care of a few cats before so if a cat is not sleeping after a long period of time, it is kinda odd)

So when he finally closed his eyes to rest in front of my prayer mat while I was reading the Quran, I lowered down my volume, not wanting to wake him up. (Although macam awat hang tidur sini)

And when I decided to stop reading, he opened his eyes, looked at me as if saying ‘why did you stop?’

He was brought into some stranger’s house, and perhaps it is the word of Allah that had made him to feel calm to be able to rest.

And soon after, he lay down on top of my prayer mat in front of me when I am reading the Quran, listening to this lullaby. (Dh ups sikit, dulu depan sejadah, now atas sejadah. Amboi Loki,😸)

May all of us find peace, tranquility and calmness in the words of Allah💗


Surah Yusof عليه السلام Part 2

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

We all have our ‘not-feeling-it’ days right.

It just happened that I just don’t feel like finishing the last 2 pages of what I was supposed to read that morning. And since I don’t have school that day, I was like I’ll read it later.

Maybe I was so tired that day that I even slept for almost 3 hours during the day. If I take into account that I don’t usually sleep during the day, this was like okay dude what is up with that?! So duh I don’t have time to do what I needed/wanted to do during the day so I pushed reading the Quran to night-time.

And so it happened that I had a major meltdown and tadaaaaaaaa: the second page of the 2 pages is Surah Yusof (عليه السلام) i.e. the surah recommended for you to read when you are sad.

الله أكبر الله أكبر الله أكبر ولله الحمد

May our not-feeling-it moments always bring us back to Him💗

عيد مبارك. كل عام وأنتم بخير



What makes me happy?

Animals. Looking at animals. Touching them. Like purely happy that my friend even commented how happy I was then. Like beaming with joy.

If i could, I want to hug them, especially those furry ones.

But the situation is that I can’t have one as a pet at home. Sometimes I can’t touch it even if I have one.

Because apparently I have accidentally taken a monster as a pet.

It lives in my head.


Repost: Patience

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Repost from http://islamicsunrays.com/the-incident-of-the-epileptic-woman/

There is a hadith narrated by ‘Ata bin Abi Rabah رضي الله عنه:

Ibn ‘Abbasرضي الله عنهما once said to me, “Shall I show you a woman of the people of Paradise?”

I said, “Yes.”

He said, “This black lady came to the Prophet

صلى الله عليه وسلم and said, ‘I get attacks of epilepsy and my body becomes uncovered; please invoke Allah for me.’ The Prophet صلى الله عليه وسلم said (to her), ‘If you wish, be patient and you will have Paradise; and if you wish, I will invoke Allah to cure you.’ She said, ‘I will remain patient,’ and added, ‘but I become uncovered, so please invoke Allah for me that I may not become uncovered.’ So he invoked Allah for her.” – Bukhari :: Book 7 :: Volume 70 :: Hadith 555

I don’t have epilepsy or any other serious sickeness, Alhamdulillah (praise God)  for all His blessings. But as I read the comments of people who do have some illness and have been tremendously comforted by this hadith, all of a sudden I realized the huge wisdom of the Prophet Muhammad صلى الله عليه وسلم in what he said to the epileptic woman. He could have simply invoked for her and she would have been cured, and then all of us 1,400 years later would read the story and say, “Ma-sha-Allah, another miracle to prove his Prophethood.” But it would have no lasting personal significance.

Instead, by asking the woman to be patient and promising her Jannah (Paradise), the Prophet صلى الله عليه وسلم has sent a message of hope down through the ages to all the other sufferers in the world:  Allah sees your suffering. Your pain will be compensated, and your patience rewarded with the greatest possible prize.

Even today epilepsy cannot be cured, though it can be controlled somewhat through medication. So even now, all these years later, in this age of medical wonders, this hadith still has immediate significance for people who suffer from this illness, and in fact from people who suffer from any illness, from cancer to leprosy to bipolar disorder.


Sleep Well, Love

He drags his feet to his bed. Although he just took a shower, his eyes is already half closed.

“Don’t forget to read the prayer, Uwais..”

Head on pillow while reciting the prayer to sleep outloud for me to hear “اللهم باسمك أحيا وأموت” (In your name, O Allah, I live and I die). And as if on cue, he slept.

He slept soundly. He worked hard today. Perhaps everyday. I don’t want to sound like a mean mother that fills up her child’s timetable with all sort of classes….but perhaps that is the best for him.

Have you ever noticed? The ones that worked hard are most probably the ones that will easily sleep at night. Tired.

Uwais, may you work hard in this life for the hereafter to be able to sleep and rest well in your grave bed too. 💗



He lays on the hospital bed-Smiling.

“Why are you smiling, son?”

“The pain, Ummi.” While reaching out for my hand, he continues “It reminds me of this mortal life. I don’t belong here. Remember the teacher said that time that all of us want to go back. We all want to go to where we used to be. We are all searching our way back. But sometimes….we all became so busy and forgot to search for it.

I know I won’t be able to live like an average person, but yet this is good, Ummi. Pain helps me to remember to work hard for the hereafter, to reach Jannah, to reach Him, to where there will be no pain thereafter…..Pain is good.”