It was as if I heard it for the first time
وَمَا خَلَقْتُ الْجِنَّ وَالْإِنْسَ إِلَّا لِيَعْبُدُونِ
And I did not create the jinn and mankind except to worship Me.
To let me realize that all those stress, worry and sadness about not being able to live as an average human being is not worth it.
The main problem for feeling blergh was perhaps the lack of realisation that my life was just for Him.
Let that sink in.