The Thing Is.

The things is.
I don’t want to create an environment of
‘Oh don’t use foul languages in front of Nadrah’
‘Oh we must behave well in front of Nadrah’
‘Oh we must dress decently in front of Nadrah’
‘Oh we cannot talk nonsense in front of Nadrah’

Then what happens when I am not around?

We must collectively create the environment of
Allah is with us
Allah is watching
We want to have the highest form of akhlaq because we want to be closer to Rasulullah صلى الله عليه وسلم
We want to have a higher rank in the sight of Allah

We must create this in us
This feeling of ‘Allah is watching me’



Time check- 3.54am

Just finished doing house chores. (Obviously because I don’t have time during the day.)

1) I thought to myself, a decent person will eventually clean up a messy or dirty place. It is our nature as a human being that we love cleanliness. So what do you think happened to someone who refuses to clean his heart after knowing how dirty it is.

2) Although it is tiring at times to take care of a mentally challenged individual, it can be funny sometimes. I found her wallet in the fridge 😆

I guess it helped me to realize the fact that we don’t know what the other person is facing. We are all facing our own battles so be kind.

3) The normal working hours for an accountant/auditor in Singapore is well….basically your office is your second home. You know what, if I am going to work all day and night and do laundry after midnight….no thanks.




Actions are distinguised, one from the other, with respect to their excellence in the Sight of Allah in accordance with the condition of the heart, not by their number or form, but rather due to the strength of the caller, his or her truthfulness, his or her sincerity and the extent to which he or she prefers Allah over himself or herself.

-Ibn al-Qayyim



It was as if I heard it for the first time

وَمَا خَلَقْتُ الْجِنَّ وَالْإِنْسَ إِلَّا لِيَعْبُدُونِ

And  I  did  not  create  the  jinn  and  mankind  except  to  worship  Me.

To let me realize that all those stress, worry and sadness about not being able to live as an average human being is not worth it.

The main problem for feeling blergh was perhaps the lack of realisation that my life was just for Him.

Let that sink in.



I really thought it was the day
I prayed hard for it to happen
If only you could recognize the fake smiles
The slightly extra squinted eyes

I really hope that it was going to happen
I prayed hard for it to happen
He allowed it to happen
Only to prevent from the former prayer to not happen

Another classic case to remind
About He who overwrites our plans
Another classic case to realize
He knows best and plans in our best interest


I prayed to not let it be the last time I can learn from Ustaz Iqbal. And so I ended up in class again:)


What Should I Tell Her?

Should I just slap her?
“Stop comparing yourself to others!”

A few years back, she told me that her teacher suddenly explain a little bit about the verse in surah Toha

وَلَا تَمُدَّنَّ عَيْنَيْكَ إِلَىٰ مَا مَتَّعْنَا بِهِ أَزْوَاجًا مِنْهُمْ زَهْرَةَ الْحَيَاةِ الدُّنْيَا لِنَفْتِنَهُمْ فِيهِ ۚ وَرِزْقُ رَبِّكَ خَيْرٌ وَأَبْقَىٰ

And  do  not  extend  your  eyes  toward  that  by  which  We  have  given  enjoyment  to  [some] categories  of  them,  [its  being  but]  the  splendor  of  worldly  life  by  which  We  test  them. And  the  provision  of  your  Lord  is  better  and  more  enduring.

She was surprised how suitable that ayat was to her condition. As if the teacher was preparing her heart.

But all of us have our days where we just….well…compare ourselves to others although we shouldn’t. (Depends)

She and her complains. *sigh*
“Why can’t I be like normal people?”
“Why can they just keep their wudhuk and just pray whenever they want?”
“Why does it take them a short while?”
“Why must I go through a very loonggg lonnggg tiringgg process just to pray?”

What should I tell her? I can’t be there for her 24/7.

“Babe, you know….I know you get tired and frustrated because of your health issues but look on the bright side. Perhaps your obligatory weighs heavier because of the process. Maybe. People can pray wherever they want like shopping malls. But you always need the mosque’s toilet (water hose) and take your wudhuk again so you will end up praying at the mosque. Take it as a gift that He is indirectly forcing you to go to His house. Every step to His house to pray, if God wills, removes a sin and increase you in rank. Think it that way okay? Okay? Okay?”

But I know it is not just that. It is all the places she would have gone to. The gatherings she refused to go. The people she stayed away from. All the ‘funny’ remarks. All the missed opportunities.

What should I tell her?


People of the World #6

I kind of like you.
I like you.

There is this person I kept bumping into.
Fair skinned.
Sweet smile.
Usually the one starting the conversation.
You are the easy-going type of person.
And I am the all-awkward kind.

We have bumped into each other in the east, central and west part of Singapore.
I think we will meet again.

Kalau jumpe jodoh agak2 cam gini ey?
Selalu jumpe then suke?
Kalau jodoh tak kemane?
Ey kemane plak entry ni ey.

(P/s: I am talking about a girl by the way)

Shall I tell her I love her as per the hadith?