Say Yes

A thousand times over
I’ll send in my application

A thousand times over
I’ll just repeat the same old lines to you

A thousand times over
I know I should forget about it

But a thousand times over
I’ll just continue
Just because I know I’m dealing with you



Hardships are Blessings

They say you’ll never know a blessing without going through a hardship.

I tapped my card when boarding the bus. Looking at the small screen that showed my card balance. Out of the blue, tears started to form in my eyes.

It was just a few years ago that I teared up for being hungry. And apparently because someone was eating McDonalds’ fries there. I don’t really like McDonalds and I don’t even eat fries. But who cares, I was hungry.

It was just a few years ago that I took the bus instead of the train, in which I can reach within half the time if I took the latter route. But because I need to save money.

It was just a few years ago that I asked myself ‘you want to drink or take the bus’? So I walked to and fro.

It was just a few years ago that I told myself ‘The only meal you are getting is when you reached home’ (after continuing working after finishing an office hour job.)

But I also remember the times where someone suddenly do something nice during the period. I remember the times, over and over again that suddenly someone came over and gave me food. A stranger suddenly passed me cash. (Really like randomly someone talked to me and gave me cash) Friends suddenly treating me meals.

And perhaps times like this that made me realized Ar-Razzaq, the Sustainer. And times like this made me now go ‘Remember the times someone suddenly gave you food when you were hungry? You remember how He took care of you?’

And by writing this I hope I can remember this situations. And perhaps stop complaining how far is school from home and start to be thankful for the fact that I have the money to even pay for my transportation now.

Hardships are blessings in disguise. It builds you. And it also forces you to practice patience and perseverance.

وَلَنَبْلُوَنَّكُمْ بِشَيْءٍ مِنَ الْخَوْفِ وَالْجُوعِ وَنَقْصٍ مِنَ الْأَمْوَالِ وَالْأَنْفُسِ وَالثَّمَرَاتِ وَبَشِّرِ الصَّابِرِينَ * الَّذِينَ إِذَا أَصَابَتْهُمْ مُصِيبَةٌ قَالُوا إِنَّا لِلَّهِ وَإِنَّا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعُونَ * أُولَئِكَ عَلَيْهِمْ صَلَوَاتٌ مِنْ رَبِّهِمْ وَرَحْمَةٌ وَأُولَئِكَ هُمُ الْمُهْتَدُون*

And We will surely test you with something of fear and hunger and a loss of wealth and lives and fruits, but give good tidings to the patient*
Who, when disaster strikes them, say, “Indeed we belong to Allah , and indeed to Him we will return.”*
Those are the ones upon whom are blessings from their Lord and mercy. And it is those who are the [rightly] guided.




I found this in my notebook

“I cried because I was thankful that my mind was quiet”


The notebook begins with “So I will not forget & be thankful. InsyaAllah.”

I haven’t been writing much in it. I should.

Maybe it is weird for some that I cried just because my mind was quiet. But I guess and hope that this will make any one of you to realize that we are all struggling one way or another. Just because the struggle cannot be seen, doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist.

Treat people kindly and always have good thoughts:)

May Allah make us grateful servants.

َ رَبِّ أَوْزِعْنِي أَنْ أَشْكُرَ نِعْمَتَكَ الَّتِي أَنْعَمْتَ عَلَيَّ وَعَلَىٰ وَالِدَيَّ وَأَنْ أَعْمَلَ صَالِحًا تَرْضَاهُ وَأَدْخِلْنِي بِرَحْمَتِكَ فِي عِبَادِكَ الصَّالِحِينَ

My  Lord,  enable  me  to  be grateful  for  Your  favor  which  You  have  bestowed  upon  me  and  upon  my  parents  and to  do  righteousness  of  which  You  approve.  And  admit  me  by  Your  mercy  into  [the ranks  of]  Your  righteous  servants. (27:19)


Lovers Call Each Other

It was not until someone said something like “Yes! I don’t need to pray!” That it hit me.

As if “Yes! I don’t need to talk to you (Allah)!”

Don’t we always want to make contact with the the ones we love? Whatsapp? Email? Call?

And if the ones we love, love to be hugged instead of being kissed or love to be called instead of just getting a whatsapp message, so what will you do? The actions your lover loves more? Or less?

So where does an action that He made it compulsory for us stands? Isn’t the obligated prayer beloved to Him?

Although praying and the period where women do not need to pray are both prescribed by Allah, but there is as if something is wrong with being happy for not needing to go away for some time to go talk to Him.